Jackson. It’s a name that for a long time has been associated with an earlier generation, but there’s a new Jackson in town. Paris Jackson is a 19-year-old musician, model and actress. Once known specifically as Michael Jackson’s daughter, Paris has grown up the last few years and is making a name for herself. So let’s take a look at her transformation over the years, becoming another famous Jackson along the way.

She lived a sheltered childhood

Growing up with an extremely famous dad, Jackson had an unusual and quiet childhood. She described these years to Harper’s Bazaar, saying, “The first 12 years of my life I was homeschooled… Which means that the only interactions I’d ever had were with family members or other adults.”

Not being around other kids, Jackson wasn’t much of a kid herself. Once she was no longer home-schooled at 12 years old in 2010, she had to readjust to a new life. She continued on to the tell the magazine, she, “didn’t have social skills. I had to force myself to learn so fast…. For the past six years, I’ve been learning how to communicate. And I think I’ve gotten pretty good at it.”

She has fond memories of being a kid

Even though Jackson had an unusual childhood and an extremely famous father, she still felt she had certain normal elements of life while growing up. Did she grow up in a house that also had an amusement park? Yes, but she couldn’t go on rides whenever she wanted. She told Rolling Stone, “We couldn’t just go on the rides whenever we wanted to…. We actually had a pretty normal life. Like, we had school every single day, and we had to be good. And if we were good, every other weekend or so, we could choose whether we were gonna go to the movie theater or see the animals or whatever. But if you were on bad behavior, then you wouldn’t get to go do all those things.”

And as for her dad, she has never doubted his love for her. She continued on to say, “His number-one focus for us… besides loving us, was education.”

Her teen years were a struggle

After Jackson’s father passed away in 2009, she went through a few tough years. As she described to Rolling Stone in 2017, back in June of 2013, the then-15-year-old tried to kill herself, already struggling with depression and drug addiction. She later was able to verbalize what was happening at the time, saying, “It was just self-hatred… low self-esteem, thinking that I couldn’t do anything right, not thinking I was worthy of living anymore.”

Jackson attempted to commit suicide multiple times, but eventually was sent to a therapeutic school in Utah during her high school years. These years had a big impact on Jackson. She said, “It was great for me… I’m a completely different person… I was crazy. I was actually crazy. I was going through a lot of, like, teen angst. And I was also dealing with my depression and my anxiety without any help.”

From astronaut to actress

Although we know she’s a talented artist, Jackson’s original career goals were more science-focused. As she told Jimmy Fallon on The Tonight Show (via CNN), “I originally wanted to be an astronaut when I was a kid…. Then I had this huge fear of black holes because my brother learned a bunch of stuff about it, and he’s like, ‘Oh, yeah, if you go into one you’re never coming back.'”

So she scratched that plan, and luckily it worked out for her. She found acting and never looked back. She continued on to say, “I’ve been taking classes since I was 13, and I enjoy it a lot…. Now that I’m actually doing it I got bit by the bug.”

Feeling comfortable in front of the camera

While acting is important to Jackson, it’s actually modeling that has had a bigger effect on her life thus far. She opened up to Rolling Stone about her struggle in the past with self-image and how being in front of a camera helps. She said, “I’ve had self-esteem issues for a really, really long time…. Plenty of people think I’m ugly, and plenty of people don’t.”

Jackson admitted that being in front of the camera and modeling is a huge help to her self-esteem. She continued, “But there’s a moment when I’m modeling where I forget about my self-esteem issues and focus on what the photographer’s telling me — and I feel pretty. And in that sense, it’s selfish.”